Despite of these moving stories, I still feel very uneasy showing off my feet after almost ten years of hiding them. I first became aware of the fact that my feet were abnormal, after I moved to the united states from Africa at the age of 13, and my American peers started staring at and making fun of my feet. When I was back in Africa, I was very comfortable with my feet; I played soccer barefoot with my peers, walked around all the time in sandals, and nobody ever really stared or even paid attention to the fact that i had two toes of equal lengths on each foot (I didnt even pay attention to my feet!lol).

It was only after my family moved to America, that I started to pay more attention to my toes and becoming aware of the fact that they were different, because the kids in my neighborhood would stare and laugh at my feet every time I went outside to play barefoot. Ever since then, I have grown so conscious of my feet to the point where I always where white tennis socks even when im at home with my own family. It has gotten to the point where I dont even feel comfortable being barefoot around my own family members (i just grow very uneasy whenever somebody stares at my feet or make comments about them). The worst part of it is that I am a guy, and i like to think of myself as being very confident and competent. With this masculine ideology, the last thing i wanna think of about myself is the idea of me being deformed in any way! lol…Moreover, being a guy and having this deformity of the feet really sucks because, this means that I cant go hot tubbing with the ladies! I’m always very confident about myself until the offers of “lets go hot tubbing” or “lets go to the beach”, come up! As soon as my friends start making these requests, I begin to make excuses like, oh, i dont have swim trunks; it’s too cold for me; or i cant swim (when i actually do know how to swim lol). As a result of having grown so sensitive about my feet, when it comes to dating and having girlfriends, I have always waited until after we’ve had sex before i take off my socks! lol…this is always the most uncomfortable moment for me, because this is normally when the girls start gazing at my feet with wondering eyes, and then follow with some little embarrassing comments such as “what is wrong with your feet?” or “you have some weird feet” lol. I get very uncomfortable during these moments because, not only do i get embarrassed when they stare and make these comments, but i also dont really know how to enthusiastically respond to such little stinging comments. I’ve had some girls who acted more considerate by looking at my feet and looking away very quickly and pretending like they didnt see anything too unusual about my feet. But even so, I always get that sense of embarrassment because i know that even though they might not have shown it, they are definitely thinking to themselves like, “wow, what is wrong with his feet?” or “i wouldnt have had sex with him if i knew about his feet!” lol. Although i havent tried it, I definitely believe that most girls would loose interest in me if i showed them my feet first before I started flirting with them…my feet just dont look sexy, period! lol I myself know that just from looking at them in the mirror! lol…I’m sure most of you guys who are suffering from this unfortunate defect also share the same feelings about your feet.

because of the way this mutation brings down my self esteem, I will definitely consider investing in any opportunity that is available to me, so that i can get rid of it once and for all and stop treating my feet as if they were another genital or something! lol